Welcome again to wherever you’re — Bruce Percy

For a few years I’ve all the time anticipated that fashion, if one is ready to have it, is one thing that surfaces over time. Initially it’s not so clear, there are simply hints and recommendations, however as one’s personal confidence (and I actually imply expertise and consciousness) improves over a few years of making work that we’re pleased with, I feel ‘fashion’ if we now have it, turn into extra obvious.

I’ve additionally thought that progress shouldn’t be linear. Typically we stagnate, different instances there are large leaps in our growth, or generally a radical change whereas different years we could really feel we’re chasing our personal tail. But when we zoom out far sufficient, I might hedge a guess that the majority of us can see some type of long-term evolution in what we do.

I’ve been fairly pleased with my progress over the previous decade. There have been a number of moments the place I actually felt I had hit some new type of look to what I do. These sorts of instances are very satisfying the place the ultimate consequence tends to exceed what you had hoped for. They do occur.

However I’ve additionally questioned after I may really feel that my fashion turns into extra ‘embedded’, extra a fixture, and that any continuation in work is basically an train in ‘extra of the identical’. I feel it inevitable that it will occur. However we actually by no means know after we attain a degree the place we aren’t going to vary rather more, and it’s only a case of nice tuning our expertise, or whether or not it’s only a interval the place we now have hit a plateau for a 12 months or 5.

I feel all one can do is simply maintain creating work, and to not dwell on such issues. In spite of everything, I by no means actually ever got down to create the fashion I’ve : it simply occurred. Creativity for my part is the act of submission. Somewhat than the act of ‘forcing’ or ‘striving’ to get to a pre-determined vacation spot. To maneuver ahead, it’s a must to let go, and see the place it should go beneath its personal steam.

I really feel that the final 3 years have been a stagnation, introduced on primarily by the response to the covid factor. It halted any momentum that I had. I nonetheless really feel like I’m selecting up the items. I’m not solely again on the horse because it had been, and I nonetheless really feel a way of ‘not being totally current’. I feel for me, it’s as a result of I’ve misplaced belief sooner or later now. The world I believed I lived in doesn’t exist any extra, and so I suppose, I’m nonetheless pinching myself that I’m nonetheless right here. There have been far too many moments the place I believed I wouldn’t be. I’m nonetheless coming to phrases with what occurred to myself, and the way I really feel about going ahead. This has impacted me in methods I’m nonetheless attempting to determine. And after I write these phrases, I do know that I’m talking for many people.

So with that in thoughts, I’m giving myself a free go on the work I’m creating proper now. To me, I’m simply glad I’m creating new work in any respect. And I feel to have any concepts about the place it’s getting in the long term, is just too early to consider. I’m nonetheless discovering my floor, after being groundless for a number of years.

So ‘welcome again Bruce’ is all I can say to myself. And boy, it feels very good certainly to create one thing new in spite of everything a lot wasted time, and years that you just and I’ll by no means get again.

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